I could never make a display of what goes on in my head. Never could make a display of my emotions. I never really found a reason to. What happens inside…was best kept inside. I still believe so. But I’ve been told…I end up building a wall around me. Does it help me protect from the hurt and pain? Often it does. More often I merely internalise them. Does that make the suffering go away? Or does it even make it pain any less? It doesn’t.
But I’d still prefer keeping them for me. My thoughts are all my own. And I am not the one to open my soul for everyone to see. Too personal, these feelings are to me.
But I do envy those who can show their wounds in the open. While others peer for a closer look, it makes them heal faster. Would it do the same to me? Even the thought makes me cringe. The blood and gash are maybe too dear for me to make a show of.
I’d rather internalise them. Try and heal them. Or maybe live with them. But I’d keep them safe within me.
5 comments:
The wall you creae protects you from the elements, but if you don't create a window, if you don't open a door, the same walls start suffocating you, and may crush your soul.
Do not envy those who can show their wounds. Instead go ahead and show the world your nicks and cuts. It may not make it heal ny faster, nor will it make them pity you. It will only make you more human!
Hmmmm... grave thought!
@Anonymous: being human was never the option.
if u were around back in the middle ages theyd credit u with building the great wall methinks! thats how good a wall builder u are.. dunno if thats good or bad.. just the way they are
Awesome!!wish i could write like you do.
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